Wednesday, June 1, 2011

It's Late

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  1. No, I think it's never late or too late. Maybe you were early?

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  2. Dear, dear Bill - you left this world last month on August 13 - and I miss you! Too soon and not in our plan! I can't tell you my thoughts in person - so sending this off into cyberspace and maybe enough of your atoms will still be together and you'll get the message! Today, I wore the necklace you gave me, I felt like you were around - I kept trying to feel the "energy" from the Moldavite...OH! I left a note on David's Rock Shop Facebook page...telling him of your death, he sends his kind thoughts and said you were always a friendly repsectful customer. - Ah, well -I MISS YOU - some wonderful discussions we had. I laughed more with you than anyone ever - ! So what you said, Bill: "....wrote my own epitaph (for use in the future, one hopes): "He was a really nice guy, and could always make me laugh." You DID always make me laugh. I truly missed our planned adventure, the desert, the Red Rocks, the walks and off-roading...the bat cave, the Grand Canyon, the Very Large Array!!- you were so excited to be able to show me "your West". I've reread some of your emails - yep, I was "psyched", too - It would have been a blast. and no, I never saw Paris, and I'm sad we could not hop that jet and do that trip either! I'll save up my vacation days again....and maybe I will still see Paris and try to find that bistro/cafe you talked about....I wish I could remember the name! Our last meal at the Dock Cafe, before you moved - it was great! Shutting down the place after hours of laughing and sipping cognac with dessert & coffee. One of my best dates ever. Sure, we are/were OLD - but what the hell - we still had lots of life & time or so we thought! I'm so glad that you had Susan most of your life - - Doug says she adored you - we all deserve to have that love, I'm so glad you did. I wish those last weeks had been better for you - I wish I'd have come over later that Saturday after we gals got home...one last Good-bye - I still have 2 messages from you on my phone - I do not want to erase them....the last one...you end with "Miss You" - Bill, I miss YOU. I hope you are "out" there somewhere - and yes, like you said in one last phone call - - "Love You", too. I needed to have this one last Good-Bye - and this was the only way to do it. Good-Bye, Bill, Thanks for everything. Love you, Linda

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  3. Just over a month, Bill....since you've been gone. What is it like? Are you still you? I miss you, dear friend, I miss your phone calls [at all hours]! I miss having someone say "goodnight, my dear" I hope there is something after this, and I hope you are with Susan -maybe smiling down at the rest of us. You messages are still on the phone.......the "dotter" thinks it's strange, but what the hey? I talk with Doug once in a while, but he's still that searching wanderer. I'm so glad you two had that last time together. I wonder how many folks there are like me, writing to a loved one who has died? Bill, Bill..........Miss YOU!

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  4. Bill, Bill - miss you, miss you. Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there. Are you out there somewhere?

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  5. Hey, Bill -OK, so I know you aren't reading this...well, maybe, if you are out there.....today is the first day of Autumn - like you, the "Dotter" is fussing about the return of the dark, she's been using her SAD light already. Me, I don't seem to notice. But it WAS colder and I am wearing warmer clothes. I had to write you a note, because I've started wearing the clothes I'd bought to wear on our Western trip - today a nice snug gray ribbed sweater. Since the clothes aren't going on the trip, they might as well see the light of day!Summer was too hot here to wear them yet. It's made me a bit sad to look at the things hanging in the closet, some with tags - so what the heck, might as well look nice here as well as out West with you. Don't know that I'll have anyplace to wear the LBD aka little black dress....or a couple of the fancy tops for our dinners out. What was that big fancy place we were going....Biltmore or something.

    I miss you, dear friend!! Today I was walking through Walmart.....a few errands before I go to my yoga retreat next weekend [3 days, 10 women, all day yoga]. An old love was walking straight toward me - name is Jay - he ended our relationship on a rough note....our eyes met and he turned on his heel and went down another aisle. Weird. As if it matters to me any more -it's been 4 frickin' years. Guilt? His, not mine. Oh, well. I'm baking some butternut squash from my garden for supper. Doing chicken that I laid on a bed of rosemary, also from the garden. I picked the last of the tomatoes that will ripen. All that' s left are the green ones. My friend Jean, a New Zealand gal, came and we picked lots of green ones for her to make her Green Tomato Chutney - I'll get a jar as a treat. Well - not much new really. The prison is dragging - I look forward to retirement, but don't know that I'll be able to do it as planned - stupid economy. In the back of my head.....your suggestion about joining you in Sedona.....well, should I go on my own? I don't know that I'd have the courage you did, to let go of everything here. I've got Mom, cousins, the ex and most of all the kids. Ah, well.......Miss you, Bill, miss you lots. I talk to you often in my head - I try to believe that you hear me. Love you.

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  6. Dear, dear Bill......just about one year ago we ate our "Goodbye to Minnesota" meal and closed down the Dock Cafe. What a wonderful evening and an even better memory! Miss you -still can't believe that you are no longer on this earth. I hope there IS something afterwards and that you are once again holding your dear Susan in your arms. Love you.

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  7. End of November, Bill. I can't believe you have been gone now about 3 months. I still have your phone messages. I miss our late night phone chats -it is going to be a lonely winter. Love you, miss you.

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  8. Happy Birthday - Dec 10 -it would have been your 63 - much too early to leave us, Bill. Happy New Year 2013, where ever you are - wish we could have welcomed it in together, or at least like last year - over the phone. Miss you.

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  9. Last year we were planning your return to Stillwater. I still miss you. Glorious Minnesota sunshine today - blooming crabapple trees all over town. I am waiting to plant those tomatoes you enjoyed last summer - soon! As you always ended our calls...."Love Ya"

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  10. This week, last year - you died. It's been one year and three days. I still miss you. Your messages remain on my phone. Do you know Larry passed away, too - I think your sister is doing OK. Miss you, miss you. Love ya.

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  11. Two years ago - we were planning my visit to Sedona. Your messages are still on my phone. Rainy spring day - it would have sent you scurrying back to AZ. MISS YOU!! Miss our phone chats. Big hug. Love you.

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  12. Sigh.....it's coming up on 3 years...........that 2012 winter we were eagerly planning - - your messages still there - I listen when I want to hear your voice.

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  13. in 12 days......................it will be 3 years since you passed away and left us. I MISS YOU. I have no late phone calls, no laughs at night, no crazy philosophical discussions........Love you, miss you,

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  14. Hi Bill,
    Well it has been 6 long years. Today I got a notice to renew my subscription to your blog. Of course I responded in the affirmative. Just in case, you never know. . . Seriously, I miss our far ranging discussions about computers, wine, the universe and things that go bump in the night. I think about you often -- and your laugh. Take care where ever you are out there.
    Rick

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  15. Hey, Bill - I dreamed about you last night. I can't believe it's over 6 years that you've been gone. I still miss you. Random thoughts pop into my head - and I still think "I've got to tell that to Bill" I retired and I did get back to Ireland - though Yeats country, but I did not make it to the festival - I will still try to get there. I've been thinking about both Iceland and Paris, like we always talked about. Don't worry - I'll raise a glass to you if I make it. Miss you, miss you,.....

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